Sun-dried ..........

Mr Sun Shines ..Mr. Golden Sun .. Pls come down on me

My Ahad (Sunday) comes again and this time I have scheduled myself for doing household things with my “assistance” Having my Nescafe first I start my morning. My headband has been put on n also a masker, as I am an allergic to dust. From dirty cloths to sheets and their “friends” were down to be washed and get them back to be a fragrant and clean one, while my “assistance” was on her way on windows stuff. Hope Mr. Sun shine will come d whole day as lately Jakarta is having raining and I don’t want my “works” are delayed caused by no sun shining above our places

Ramadan Karim ...

The word Ramadan is derived from an Arabic word. The Arabic word for "fasting" (sawm) literally means "to refrain" - and it means not only refraining from food and drink, but from evil actions, thoughts, and words.

Insya Allah Ramadhan will b around d corner…Do I ready to “whirl” in this beautiful month which has so many blessed from Allah swt. Will all my ibadahs are accepted by Him? I think back again to my last Ramadan, whether it has been done in a rite way ..well ….to be honest ..it’s far from a good state. My ibadahs were up n down as d rhythm of my living And Ramadan will be coming … Always promise to myself will make most of it …

Some condition in welcoming Month of Ramadan in Indonesia can be seen as a happiness which followed this blessed month. In some provinces of Java, they make “arak2an” to greet this blessed Ramadan. Some groups are doing ziarah kubur but don’t forget d most important thing that we must prepare is our health for this forthcoming blessed ramadan n whoever who hasn’t completed his/her last ramadan has to pay first before they face their new ramadan.

Whenever I heard Ramadan, my heart trembled and I got into a spiritual emotional condition. I was so hypnotized by this beautiful month. The solidarity between His Ummah gathering to their mosques and praying together fascinated me and I noticed also the ppl around much nicer….

Once I was among d group of mixed cultures. How beautiful Islam is. We came from different nations which has colorful cultures n I dono their languages ..but seems we r so close like brothers n sisters in islam. I was waiting for my break fasting while reading my quran n I heard someone greeted me .. Masya Allah, She (a sister from Tunisia) gave me a pack of fresh dates with sweet local tea. I said thank u to her then I opened my box for her to take which I brought from home. We looked like an old friend then, exchanging talks n read quran together.

I can only highlite for myself that these things not only up to ramadan but will continue for d rest of months ….insya allah.

DZIKIR with 1 million of friends

(Doa: Rabb, putuskanlah qalbu kami dengan segala sesuatu yang tidak Engkau kehendaki)

The time was just already at 7 in that morning. The climate was clear n very mild and cool. By wearing all whites, children until grown up groups no matter what their ages and genders were having d same purpose, dzikir. They came from all over parts of Jakarta, and some from Bandung, Kalimantan and West Java.

The committee has organized that session very well n on schedule. Huge and wide fields have been covered by gigantic umbrella, sound systems set up perfectly and they also provided us lots of wudlu place. I saw a number of families brought their own praying items just in case they didn’t get any space. Meanwhile there were also amount of sellers were selling light snacks, mineral water, set of praying cloths and selling Islamic tapes.

At 09.00 AM sharp, Ustadz Arifin who has friendly n cool face lead our dzikir which was began by his tausiah (Islamic lecture). By his gentle n hospitable voice he invited us to still have a persistent on our belief. Eyes were tearing, souls seems very empty, all our acts seems so clearly and transparent ..something we did before that we should not doing .. astagfirullah al adziimmm – my body was trembling of my acts The Ustadz was gradually and very pleasant lead that moment for us to heal our qalb and our acts, as Allah will always forgive His Ummah no matter what their age n their mistakes and their genders. Allah’s forgiveness is much wider than our mistakes … so do not delay our apologizes to Allah and to all bros and sisters in this world.

Another hours passed by, a sea of whites moving slowly and orderly and mingling with other brothers and sisters in islam to have silaturahim and spending their rezeki in a modest way.

This activity was clearly made our hati, soul and our five senses became much humble n modest Insya Allah n should think to where we are going to after this dunia.

"REUNION"

Death is when we realize the power of spirituality and the impotence of materiality

Finally we met our old friends. Friends we knew since we enrolled our university.
It was sudden a call I got this morning. I was lying on d bed as I was not feeling well. Then my friend informed me that one of my friends has passed away. We urgently went there to pay last visit – just meeting his beloved wife who also is our friend.

From day to day we have scheduled our times to meet him. But what we had just now was “reunion”. Reunion, as all of his friends were there to do takziah. All of his friends, from many layers came to his house. We only met his beloved wife and his mother n his families.

It was a very deep sad as I didn’t follow my heart to dial him a week ago just to greet or exchange news. I used to phone him directly if I had a strong feeling to call or to speak or vise versa but this time I didn’t do it. And it was just like that ..he's already away .. innalillahi wa innaillaihi rodziunnn.

My EVENING time

Half of area of that mosque was almost occupied by His ummah. Each of us has placed his/herself good and in order. Brothers are in front while sisters are in behind their lines.

I met again this lady coming and performing praying together with us. She was a little bit late , but with a quick steps she could reach the floor just in time. It was almost 6 pm but I could see that she still manage her energy very well as I met her still “alive”, smiling to sisters in islam who has been passing through.

I was at that mosque for quite some times recently. It was after office hours, something that almost ppl were going home directly or hanging out with their group. I didn’t notice any “strange” things from what we or they were doing. I learnt a meaning of life, how to fulfill times with significant effects.

Then I saw that lady step a little bit to d back as she continued her praying for sunnah I guess. The cool air of Jakarta coming to our floor and her praying cloth was swinging by the singing of the beautiful atmosphere.

That evening I met a lot of new friends from parts of Jakarta, some are groups who used to spend time at the mosque and learnt valuable lesson from ulama their. This opportunity meant a lot to me because I can interact with them without having “office look” which was draining lately.

A TIME with my BELOVED

O Mustafa ..you are the supreme master.

I prepared myself from months to months then turned to years n years wanted to meet my beloved. And it was a wonderful times for me as I had a chance to meet him. My heart was trembling as he opened his door very wide. My eyes sparkled with excitement n I strode my steps as I’d like to meet him urgently.

Assalamualaika yaa Rasulullah ….
There was a pleasure on my heart keen on meeting him, having beautiful conversation with my honor one.

Assalamualaika yaa Rasulullah ….
I felt a beautiful smile u had which showing on ur pleasant n honest eyes. U welcomed me n my other brothers and sisters in islam coming to your neat and wonderful house. We came to make a dua for u, for ur beloved family n for all syuhada n for all muslim in this world.

A fresh morning in Madinah Al-Munawarrah. I witnessed ur ummah came and gathered in ur beautiful mosque.
Assalamualaika yaa Rasulullah ….
Waalaikum salam yaa lina …I heard he answered my greetings with full of passion
And I heard million n million of greetings rapidly at my back.
U smiled – ur face shined n a cool air turned to be a warm one. Ur nur (light), were entering all my body.

He talked to us and said that brothers n sisters who have not any chanced to meet him and seen him and follow islam after his presence, who agreed with what his lesson, doing their faith n believe in ghaib, doing shalat n channeling their rezeki are his beautiful brothers and sisters who has amazing belief.

I was deeply moved by his patience n my tears were flowing at every steps of my visiting to Raudah. I felt so close to him at that time. Every steps of my walking were advised by u my beloved. All my senses and my breaths were with u.