FISH Without Water .....

It was a gloomy nite as I lied in bed in d bumpy hearts of d situation. I have n opened my computer and went from one site to another sites. I found nothing that made me feel peace and attracted my attention – NOTHING that made me feel better.
So I browsed again and again until my eyes were tired – still I have found nothing.

My tears blurred the nite – I touched my fingertips n I felt my tears dropping. My mind struggled to remember all my past – I fought battle with another part of my mind, trying desperately to forget.

I felt very miserable that nite and was alone in my worldly quests.. I didn’t find any “friends” thro browsing million of sites. I felt so overwhelmed filled with fear. But then I moved my hands n found my Prayer Beads, are traditionally used to keep count of the repetitions of prayers, and I went from 1 to 115 ..and what I did …I found I slept in d middle of praying ….

TIRED Eyes ...

I dunno how management chooses for their company to join a tender. With only a limited sources they force us (if it can be said) that to work on the projects. And the result are always everything in a rush – panic- not in a well schedule. For me personally, the project itself more often than not true.- only a game of high business anyway. Which was taken our energies for “thousand hours” on working late but so far only a little percent works out?

I am tired now: woke up with a heavy raining, went to work at 5 am to catch the xxxx meeting, had a horrible traffic, had two working partners in sick and it’s a deadline day, went home in d middle of nite.

And now am at home ….taking my day off n seeing them from a distance while sipping my Nescafe.

My free time ...

I wasn’t d best in cooking, it’s fair enough. It’s not because I didn’t want to try but because nowadays I find so many practical ingredients to get easily.

When come to free time I was browsing myself to look for some easy cooking n bring some to office so friends can taste and we sometimes have a potluck lunch together. This kind had been through occasionally. However, seeing friend’s meal was much teaser even though their cooks are OK – that’s nature I guess …